ECSTACY

 I was tempted  to stand outside myself

To question and applaud mine whole life

I was sad for the chances fallen o'er cliff

I was unhappy with all i did with strife

For everything was like a pretty paradox;

In scourge there was a chance of healing

Much questioning opened a Pandora's box

In losing i was gaining,in loving i was hating

Like a sieve life residued what i needed not

Friends and foes lost and gained I in equity

All good and bad ways boiled in the same pot

Proud that i was weak and sho'ed no frailty

Fearing to be judged by saintly sinners

Who're  worse than cold blood murderers.

Ecstacy is a greek word ekstasis,which means stand outside (one)self.